Today I felt really great. Stayed below my daily calories, ate well, felt confident and pretty, and got tons of compliments, even from people I don’t normally talk to so that felt really good!
4 different people today asked me about my weight and my weight loss progress so far. I used to be really embarrassed to talk about it (because its all, “Oh my god she’s losing weight intentionally so she knows she’s fat”… ridiculous) or acknowledge to anyone that I’m trying to lose weight, but SO MANY PEOPLE have become interested and always ask what I’m doing, or what I’m eating.
I hope this doesn’t sound cocky but I really like being that motivation for people to step inside the gym or eat better. At least 3 girls I work with have told me that my progress (and almost 40 pound loss) has motivated them to get fit, and thats EXCELLENT! I 100% believe that as women we need to build each other up and not bother being in competition with one another. And it makes me really happy when they tell me about their successes and progress! I never in a million years thought I would be someones - much less multiple peoples! - inspiration to get healthy!
But something that is bothersome to me is whenever I tell people, “I still need to lose 46 pounds,” the reaction is really negative: “Oh my God WHY?! You’ll be WAY TOO SKINNY then! You will weigh nothing!” etc and that is very frustrating. I don’t share my weight with anyone except this blog, and being almost 5’11 I certainly carry my weight well, so I don’t blame people for having a negative reaction. I definitely don’t look 211 pounds, but I am, and thats unhealthy and in the obese range for my height. I know my blog is called “165” but being in my healthy weight range I need to reach at least under 180, which I would be happy with.
I just wish people could understand more. But I understand its my fault because I share and/or don’t share certain things with them, so they can only run off of assumptions. Most people think I already weigh around my GOAL WEIGHT, which is insane!
When I look at my body now, I can definitely tell the physical differences, which I couldn’t really see before. I can see the fat loss mostly in my stomach, thighs, upper arms, and my calf area is slimming down from running a lot. This is a huge motivation coupled with all the comments I receive!
I have also mentioned on my blog the My Fitness Pal app a lot, and how much it has SAVED me during this journey. I log every single day, even on horrible eating days. But I truly believe counting calories and seeing the ups and downs of my eating has helped. Not to mention seeing the “In 5 weeks you’ll weigh…” estimation makes me want to stay on track and push harder so I can see that number! In 5 weeks I should be under 200 pounds which is a super exciting feeling!